i really want to go out. with my ex classmates and current classmates.

but...

going out means i have to beg steal borrow and scavenge for $$$. and now, i'm broke. and when i do have money, i'm tempted to splurge and then regret later...like 2 seconds after i bought the thing

and...

going out means i have nothing to do that day and i'm FREE!! which i'm not. the number of free days in singapore during my holidays, adds up to abt 17...and its getting less, and less and less. and its either because i'm away, or i'm singing, or i'm soul searching...in long retreats.

not only that.....

going out means PEOPLE! and the PEOPLE whom i cant wait to see and miss the most leave me out..): then they post sickeningly long, cheery posts abt how much fun they had and they make it clear that they completely forgot my existence.

ah heck...what am i whining abt? aha. i do have a rich sister and negotiable parents. yay.
i do have 17 days which is like 2 and a half weeks free!
and i do have many many dear friends who are aproachable, and i'm grateful for them.
yay! the glass is always half full....