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Sunday, October 28, 2007
this is a post that i just cant refuse.
this is also a post that i should be writing while i'm waiting for my hair to dry at 2am in the morning after i scrub the scum of my skin and scalp.
but no. you see, at such odd hours of the day, i tend to refuse to act according to my own common sence
even during normal bright sunny hours of the day i still refuse to do so. like when i put triple science as my first choice, yea thats an example of me not using common sence
anyway, besides my dismay due to my stupidity and lacklusture writing technique and my totally flushed out vocabulary (blame it on the exams) i am also sad because its gonna be november
which means bye bye sec 2/3
i am so greatful my chinese reeks. because my sucky, deplorable, laughable chinese led me to 1/3 o6. which blossomed into the awesome 2/3 which is, hah, so much better than your class.
damn right its better than yours.
and i know you wish you were in 2/3
you dont get exploding lighters in your class do you??
2/3 has just been the funnest rollercoaster ride that i have had the privelege of being on. its the kind that, at the end, you wish you didn't have to leave your seat and once you get off you'd rush back into the queue.
and i dont think any class, or group or club or organization or whatever is gonna be as fun and warm as 2/3.
i can only hope now that i DIDN'T get my first choice for the streaming thingie cause if i do, then i'm screwd for life and 2/3 would just be a sad phantom of the past.
shit
anyway, goodbye 2/3, i learnt more than i ever thought i would from you. and i wish that we never never never had to part. but you see all 41 of us had to be smart brilliant people. so all 41 us had to be promoted. and therefore all 41 of us just cant stay with each other.
i can only hope that the cheery and cheeky spirit of 2/3 lingers in at least half of us so that, you know, next year wont be boring shit.
bye bye 2/3. sniff sniff. thanks for every breathing moment i had with you.
and to joel tay kai liang. goodbye. you'll definitely be missed and it sucks that you cant stay for another 2 years. its almost unbelievable that i was once taller than you. but oh well. the next time i see you (when i say this i mean next year) you'll be looking sexy and tall in grey!
and bye bye soma, though you're not in 2/3 o7. you definitely look like you were cut out for it. and though you're gross, it was a pleasure getting to know you and laughing at how hilariously ridiculous you were in drama classes. i'll be seeing you looking good in grey too!
and bye bye brindah, though we never got the chance to be better friends, i'm still sad that you wont get to stick around longer. you can come visit me and my neighbour. cough cough. anytime!
now i'm all miserable. oh well. bye bye then. gotta be up by 6!
1:36 AM
Saturday, July 14, 2007
how strange...
i'm blogging.
well, my hair's wet cause i surrender to the deadly temptation of sloth too often so i take naps that are too long and baths at the unorthodox hour of 2 am.
which means i cant sleep. oh and i'm super moody and homicidal and irritated cause my dad wont call the plumber, my mum doesn't seem to care either and my toilet still isn't fixed. bloody pipes.
so i was blog sufing today. why? no idea. i'm suprised at myself. anyway, then i saw his name in some1's links. so i clicked on it due to my curiosity and that familiar feeling of uselessness. and there was nothing at his blog worth reading...kinda disappointing. so i went to her blog, again, curious and feeling useless. and her blog was inspiring and absolutely touching.
it was inspiring enough to start me blogging again. though i dont see any prospect of another post soon.
yea..so about her blog. its really sad, and i'm really really sorry abt it. and i hate sitting beside her everyday, seeing her smile but knowing she's not quite whole, wishing that i could do something or anything to help, but not knowing what to do, being too afraid to do anything, knowing i'd only make it worse, pretending to not show interest in bringing up the matter, being totally useless.
i dont like seeing him frequently, pretending we're total strangers, that we've never met, as if our existence are just illusions.
at the same time her blog is hopeful, indept, smart and witty. making me feel inspired, to talk, to not be a slob. and it makes me feel happy! but its a weird kind of happy. and theres alot of kinds of happy. but i cant really put a finger on what kind of happy it is. its not the YAY!! THAT IDIOTIC FAGGOT GOT SENT OUT OF THE HALL happy. or the OMG MY MOMMA BOUGHT ME A LLAMA happy. its a very suttle, almost hard to notice kind of happy and i'm pretty sure i'm not making sence right now. well, i guess it makes me happy cause its deep and beautiful not shallow and yucks like the shores of singapore beaches.
now i'm feeling weird mixture of sorrow and suttle happiness. yet i feel homicidal and annoyed at the stupid toilet. curses. oh and i feel pain too cause i was playing with my teeth again and i hit something a little too hard and now my teeth and gums are stingy. oh and i'm feeling the YAY kind of happy too cause i finally cleared up my room a little and i cant remember when how longs its been since i've seen so much of my bedroom floor. oh and i feel dryer now which means i can sleep. so i'm sleepy.
goodnight.
3:01 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
i haven't blogged.
oh well
thats beside the point cause IM BLOGGING NOW!!!
yea and now its story time!!!
the boy walked through the gate, expressionless and apathetic. Though he was accompanied by many and was not left alone, it was hard to tell if he felt any warmth. He reached the porch, where a few acquaintances stood, and waved fleetingly at them, retaining the usual nonchalant expression.
The boy was quite successful in keeping this this cool, indifferent manner, till he saw her-the girl, standing among the insignificant others. The girl that stood eminent among the rest, though she was the last he saw. She smiled and raised her hand in cordial greeting, and he did the same, though this greeting was notably different from the former. The difference was the way that particular greeting sent warmth streaming into the boy, brimming him with such joy that he couldn't contain it, and was revealed through a wide smile, stretching across his face, causing creases above at his eyes.
Instantaneously, the boy forgot all the misfortunes that had occured during the day. His day could not be more beautiful, his life couldn't be more splendid. He led the rest of his day in a blissful which would not have taken place, if not for the smile of the the girl.
yay. its a true story by the way
9:52 PM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
getting serious....
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they dont seem to care. they seem to have forgotten.
wait, they DONT care. but have they really forgotten?
but i care! i care i care i care! and can and will never forget.
but they dont seem to care that i care! they dont seem to care that i remember!
do they?
i'm sure they do remember. just that they dont care.
maybe they do care but just dont show it
maybe it seems that i dont care.
maybe i haven't showed it. but i have!
just that they've neglected my invites.
and i've been inviting myself into things.
maybe its because i've changed too much
or maybe its because i haven't changed.
maybe i should just not care too.
maybe i should just seemingly forget too.
but i want to care and i want to remember.
maybe i have to initiate.
maybe its cause i smell.
and they wont even read this.
but do i want them to read this?
maybe i should stop whining and do something abt it.
what maybe. i SHOULD stop whining.
ok stopped
18 November 2005. why the hell did that day have to come and pass.
9:02 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i'll cut the crap on why i haven't blogged in like nearly forever and go straight to the stuff on my mind.
1st----------- I SWEAR MY ENGLISH IS SINKING TO THE STANDARDS OF AN AUNTIE SELLING CHAR KUAY TEOW IN THE MARKET. that isn't good cause my chinese isn't any better. its nearly comparable to my dad's. AND HE DREW DUCKS IN CHINESE CLASS WHEN HE WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL and he like didn't take chinese after a while. I DIDN'T DRAW DUCKS! i drew human beings and transformed the little boys in the text book to transvestites. AND I STILL TAKE CHINESE (which i passed!!!!)
so...if i continue at this rate i will be....like.....stupid (more so than i already am to some). and if i become stupid, i'll be a poseur 'rock star' for abt 4 years then turn myself into a blonde bimbo and wear stockings u would see 'sales women' in the even avenues of geylang wearing and sing a song abt my plans to steal a boyfriend. hey, stupid people like poseurs and bimbos somehow make big money.
2nd----------abt..5 days ago WE KICKED ORCHID PARK'S BUTT. yep.YAY!!! even though i thought ALOT of comments made were utterly unfair, it was a good night. YAY!!!! and theres still a next round on the 25th!! (gosh i just realised thats my momma's birthday) and even though i have like ALOT of room for improvement. I WANT TO SPEAK. and i know that I WANT TO SPEAK. so i shall work on it till i get a butt cramp from sitting at the computer researching stuff. and memorise till i forget my own phone number. anyway on friday it was an interesting debate. it was kinda difficult to know what i wanted to rebutt cause the guy spoke alot and could come up with a rebutt but i couldn't pen all of it down in time. so oh well. whats done its done. i can only move up. YAY WE WON!!! and THANK YOU!!!! to Miss Lee, Miss Sharmilah and Jon Pflug!! YAY
3rd----------YESTERDAY. kiu yan, prerana, melvin, jun ying and i went out then pao and carmina and khairi joined in after a few hours. then nothing really happened yet things did happen and we watched a movie and went home and ya. YAY! if you've been reading my post, u'll know that i DONT blog abt outings and stuff.
so yesterday was pathetic huh? ahaha. u can think that. or not.
3:02 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb 9 feb
what happened?
WE WERE DEFEATED.
WHY? WHY? WHY?
i was kinda dissapointed. REALLY dissapointed. i thought we had a good chance~~but there goes my over inflated ego.
well, my speech was super short. and my voice was all jacked up. while i was talking, in my head i was like 'WHY CANT THAT DAMMIT BELL RING' i tried to add in more and more points to make my speech seem at least a little longer but...THE BLOODY BELL DIDN'T RING.
i didn't know what to rebutt! i couldn't understand the second speaker. so like for half of his speech i was like HUH???!!! it was only in the other half when i started hearing english and i could scibble points out. still i fumbled with my cards so much it went out of order and i was like SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. and i STILL did not have enough material to talk abt
anyway. nan chiau were friendly and nice. they initiated to shake our hands. and talk to us and they were all smiley. AND THEY WORE BLAZERS AND COURT SHOES! what did we have? our tie.
but we do look smart enough, we DONT need blazers. and we didn't talk abt birds.
MIN YI!!! WOOH! was the BEST speaker of the night. SHE REALLY ROCKED IT. i on the other hand could do ALOT ALOT ALOT better. carmina was cool and calm like always, she was convincing and loud.
shit i really thought we would win. i hope they just beat us by like 0.00000000000000001 point or it'd be just embarrassing. anyway we have 2 more debates to clinch our spot in the finals.
anyway if your a nan chiau guy reading this CONGRATS! HOPE TO SEE U IN THE FINALS!!
oh and thanks to MS LEE and MS SHARMILAH for EVERYTHING. like that phantom of the opera lyric
' christine: i am the mask you wearphantom: its me they hear'yea thats how i feel abt them. THEY KICK BUTT.
thanks also to MINJUN and RYOFRED and EUGENE and ABRAHAM and PRASHAN and ZUL our debate crew who also rocks hard
and....
THE SEXY SUPPORTES- STEPH and RAE and NAOMI and JERALD and KENNETH and MELVIN and BO CHENG and DAILI and BRYAN and KHAIRI.
9 march 9 march 9 march 9 march.
we'll rock we'll rock we'll rock we'll rock.
for sure for sure for sure for sure.
finals finals finals finals.
we'll be there be there be there be there
12:40 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
LLAMA! yes LLAMA! I HAVE 3 LLAMAS NOW! lenny, kenny and penny!
aha. haven't posted in 21 days!
why?
cause i'm perpetually sleepy.
why?
cause i have to wake up at 6 every morning. and i have a mountain of undone homework
why?
cause the ppl who run schools are sadistic anti-children, anti-young person people.
why?
cause they're jealous that we look young and they're old and pruney and they try to make themselves feel better by trying to make US look old by giving us enormous eyebags.
but
some of us know how to sleep early, so they drown us with acid homework that is impossible to complete which makes it impossible to sleep at a decent time.
but
they dont quit. they're destined to make us look old like them.
so they come up with exams and tests and o'levels and stuff and starts throwing threats at our faces.
thats where the young and nice ppl lose........or so they think.
but we still manage to look good anyway and THEY LOSE!
oh yea and i HAVE to comment on todays self esteem talk.
it had quite a good strategy, making us feel good and freakishly skinny by showing us how ugly other people are. though it was more for girls, the pictures flashed were mostly girls who were either dangly skeletons, caught when they looked like crap, cropped to look like crap, had nothing on, had only their underwear on or with some other issue.
and the only guys they showed was a ken doll (he's not even real and has a shrinking dick), elton john (he's gay) and michael jackson (err...self explainatory).
but it was good anyway.
oh and thanks to every1 who wished me, and/or got me something YALL ARE AWESOME. i love you.
11:15 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
ITS ALIVE!!!!!!!!! ITS ALIVE!!!!!!!! MUAHHAHAHHA!!
MY SIM CARD HAS RISEN FROM THE DEAD!
yay! but dont have most of my contacts. :( on the plus side! i dont have to use that llama shit sony ericson phone! and i have my nice repaired, motorola back!
aha yay! anyway 2007 new year's resolution....i shall have 9 coz its a nice number
1) PASS MATH. grrrr. that math teacher better be a miracle worker
2) take care of my phone like its my own pet llama.
3) get rid of my awful airy ness which makes anderson choir sound like ass
4) 3 words: ROCK HARD ABS, by christmas
5) prefect ALL my guitar pieces
6) study super hard be super guai, finish homework, eat veggies...blah blah and like not be super~nerd
7) be less of a bitch.
8) be less of a whimp! gosh i need to be better at sports man i suck so bad i can hardly believe that i'm so sucky
9) do a split! yay! i could before! but i was like 7
the chances of me completely fufilling my resolution is as high as the chances of me shaking hands with johnny depp. oh well
7:38 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff :'(
today on the 1st of jan 2007, we mourn for the death of a dear and close companion of mine
yes u will be dearly missed by me.......the more time i had with u, the more attached i was to u, the more i realised how essential u are in my life.
you never left me, though you were often moody, you were good many many many times too. and you've always been there to entertain me in boring classes. you were alwasy there when i was lost, or tired, happy, sad, angry, constipated, with you i was never aloneeee
the next few days would be difficult without you in reach, even though i have been completely loathing you for awhile, now i know that i need you, i'll be lost without.
you were the glue that kept me and my friends together!
but now you're gone. just when i needed u the most, your gone.i will never forget the times i had with you.
come back! i need you!
i hope we'll reunite
i miss you------my beloved SIM card
OH! i almost forgot!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! *PTuuuuuT* yay! we're old! HAVE A BLESSED, RICH, FUN, PEACEFUL 2007!
1:19 AM
Monday, December 25, 2006
i know its a little late but
BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!!! MAY YOUR DAYS BE MERRY AND BRIGHT! FELIZ NAVIDAD PROSPERO ANO Y FELICIDAD!XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOh holy night!
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of the dear saviors birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till he appeard and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn!
Fall on your knees
Oh hear the angel voices
Oh night divine
Oh night when christ was born
Oh night divine
Oh night, oh night divine
Led by the light of faith serenely beaming
With glowing hearts by his cradle we stand
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming
Here come the wise men from orient land
The king of kings lay thus in lowly manger
In all our trials born to be our friend.
Truly he taught us to love one another
His law is love and his gospel is peace
Chains shall he break for the slave is our brother
And in his name all oppression shall cease
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise his holy name.
Christ! is the lord!
Then ever ever praise we.
His power and glory ever more proclaim
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
11:46 PM
